Tuesday, 1 January 2008


Kaydins being going to playcentre since he was a couple weeks old with me and my grandma (his great-grandma). Playcentre is an early childhood centre with a difference. it is rum by the parents and they attend with their children. It has been so great for me and Kaydin both. I have loved being able to watch him grow and learn and experience new things that he may not have been able to do at home and i get to share it all with him!
The last school term has been especially fantastic. his interaction with other children and adults has gotten so much better its amazing to watch.
A the start of term i would follow around with him to help him play and keep an eye on him to make sure he wasn't getting into things he probably shouldn't. i also followed him because being a single parent im so used to being the only one their to really watch out for him, but by the end of term the other playcentre mums and dads have reassured me and made me feel so much more relaxed knowing that yes someone else will stop him from jumping off the top of the fort, or tell him that climbing into the water trough is not really the best of ideas. infact the last couple weeks of term he didn't even want to play with me for the majority of the sessions preferring instead to follow other children and do activities with other mums.
but thats ok, while i did miss being the favourite it meant i got to play with the babies (while their busy mums were busy with older siblings) so win win situation for everyone

Happy New Years!

this was my first new years eve without Kaydin, for the past three years i've always been with him and gone in to sit with him while he sleeps at midnight. Last night however he was at his daddys and i was invited to the cock & bull NYE party with a group of friends because one of them works there. i had a great night but i certainly felt a little sad to not be with Kaydin for the first time. and when i jokingly said that i hadn't seen my son all year or since last year it took me a bit by surprise how upsetting that was.
but i picked him up this afternoon and he was so happy to see me and i, him. kisses and big cuddles!! he fell asleep in the car on the way home but i just wanted to wake him up so i could keep talking to him and giving him kisses.
being without your child makes you realise how much they mean to you, i've heard people say that parents who make their child their whole life are a little sad or desperate but i don't agree at all. its such a wonderful feeling knmowing that here is someone who you can always love and who will always love you (even if when they get older they don't know it)
i hope you all had a great NYE and may all your new years resolutions come true!!