this was my first new years eve without Kaydin, for the past three years i've always been with him and gone in to sit with him while he sleeps at midnight. Last night however he was at his daddys and i was invited to the cock & bull NYE party with a group of friends because one of them works there. i had a great night but i certainly felt a little sad to not be with Kaydin for the first time. and when i jokingly said that i hadn't seen my son all year or since last year it took me a bit by surprise how upsetting that was.
but i picked him up this afternoon and he was so happy to see me and i, him. kisses and big cuddles!! he fell asleep in the car on the way home but i just wanted to wake him up so i could keep talking to him and giving him kisses.
being without your child makes you realise how much they mean to you, i've heard people say that parents who make their child their whole life are a little sad or desperate but i don't agree at all. its such a wonderful feeling knmowing that here is someone who you can always love and who will always love you (even if when they get older they don't know it)
i hope you all had a great NYE and may all your new years resolutions come true!!